Been surrounding myself with too many people that snort meth and I need to stop. I feel dirty being around them when they’re high.
I have been dealing with a dark cloud over my head for over seven years now and this year I was determined to lift it off over my head. I was so good at hiding it that I thought feeling like nothing was normal until I started talking to a friend and got help. Fast forward four months since that conversation here I am, done with uni therapy and transitioning to outpatient community care. Along side with behavioral therapy and my meds I am starting to feel a range of incredible emotions I havent felt since childhood. I was so fucking ashamed about even accepting that I was a depressed self harming weak minded individual, but now I know I can be that person but choose not to be! Fucking christ I actually feel like im taking control of MY life not that fucking cloud. Years of storm and the clouds are finally parting. (: And there is no more shame.